Has it really been 2 weeks? Or one really long day.....

Oscar and I are finding our groove. He sleeps when he wants, I come running when he cries. He is pretty much the boss of me. But that's ok for now. Once I figure him out I will regain the upper hand. You just wait! (I know I know, that will come back to haunt me)

The past few days have been all over the place. For 2 nights in a row Oscar had no interest in sleep whatsoever. He pretty much fed every 1-2 hours like clockwork. Let me just say, OUCH! Last night was much better though he still woke 4 times for a meal. Let's hope he whittles that down sooner than later. The good news is that he gained 8oz in a week as of today! Go Baby O !!! He is almost back to his birthweight now which is a big relief for me. For a bit I was wondering if all the cluster feeding was due to him not being able to get the milk and getting frustrated. Now I just see that I am growing a giant. I can somehow deal with that.

Our days consist of eating, changing diapers, sleeping and writing it all down. My brain has nowhere near the mental capacity to remember anything so I just try to take really good notes. Honestly, I feel like Guy Pearce in Memento.

Speaking of which, today we achieved a milestone! In addition to gaining more than an ounce a day for the past week, Oscar lost his umbilical cord today! Hooray for belly buttons! He is also very alert and interested in the world around him when awake. His head is super strong and he loves taking everything in. So yeah, I think we'll keep him :-)

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Definitely having that Quantum Leap "Oh Boy" moment....

So, I think the sleep deprivation is starting to set in. And the fact that I am pretty much it for this baby right now. How overwhelming! It's frustrating in the sense that right now I feel like nothing is learnable. He changes every day so anything that works only works once - or twice if we are lucky. The past 24 hours he has been very clingy. Even if we put him down asleep, he can tell we aren't right next to him and it doesn't last long. He did have a good night though, only waking up twice to eat and after spending a couple hours in our bed this morning finally getting me up at 8 for breakfast.

Oscar is a good baby. And I am a good mommy. But mommy is exhausted! Even good babies are hard work. Yesterday was Jerry's first day back in the office. We were fine all day until he came home. It was like the kid you take to school and he is fine until you get back. All of a sudden I realized we had been alone all day and it just hit me. I wasn't just getting through that one day. This is my life! I know it will get easier as Oscar and I continue to learn each other and work out a pattern. And really I am not complaining, just trying to say, wow. Motherhood.

We got this list of questions for "Well Moms" at our birth class and I think it is a great check in for moms with kids of any age. I look at it often:

1. Have I eaten enough nutritious food today?
2. Have I slept or taken a nap for at least a few hours?
3. Have I bathed or showered today?
4. Have I exercised at least 20 minutes today?
5. Have I had at least 30 minutes of quiet time alone today?
6. Have I laughed today?
7. Have I let others help me today?
8. Have I kissed my baby and told him "I love you" today?
9. Have I talked to at least one adult today about how I am doing (not just about the baby)?
10. Have I forgiven myself or my partner for any minor mistakes that might have happened today?

All good things and I hope that I can answer yes to all of them on a regular basis!

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Fluffy!

We did a trial run of cloth diapering today. Oscar looked soo cute! And I think he liked it. They need to be changed more often, but I don't mind. Yet!

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