So I took the day off today and it has been wonderful. Last night was Yvonne's bachelorette party and we all rode around in a big limo to Glenwood where we danced the night away. It was a fun girls night. I haven't done that in a long time. So today I slept in and just had a really nice me day. Nothing fancy, just relaxing. I have been so up and down lately that it was nice to just be here and rest.
I had a really great talk with my dad on the phone and then later at dinner. It has been a while since I really felt like he understood where I was really coming from. Having a Pastor for a dad has its advantages and disadvantages, as i am sure you can imagine. Sometimes I need a dad and he is the pastor...and sometimes I need a pastor and he is the overprotective dad. Today he was the perfect mix of both. He really helped me understand some things that I have been dealing with. I asked him if he could see a change in me in recent months and he said yes and that he could tell I was growing in different areas. That really meant alot to me because I have always felt like the odd man out in my family...the one who screws up, even though he never made me feel that way. Later we decided to go see Chicken Little and had dinner. It was the best date I have had in a while :-) I am really so thankful for him. I know that I take his support for granted and many many people do not have that luxury. It really makes me appreciate him. So, thanks dad. I love you.
We talked alot about family. Not just in the literal sense, but in general. If you are reading this, then you are my family. Even if I don't talk to you much or we haven't always gotten along, family is family. I have learned, am learning, or will learn from you and hopefully you from me. I am sorry when I hurt you and will forgive you when you hurt me.
I guess I am just in a really good mood right now. I have felt pretty empty at times lately, and at the moment at least, I see good things and know that everything works itself out eventually. Even if the outcome is 100% different than what I thought I wanted. It's kinda funny how things work that way. I still have no clue about my future, but I am starting to see that the journey is pretty cool in itself.
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